Faithful Expressions

A CHILDS REFLECTION

The Truth Is I Needed To Be Loved By You

I Was Not Born Asking For Abuse

I Looked To You For My Direction

I Became What I Saw In Your Eyes As My Reflection

If You Told Me I Was Not Good Enough, I Was Not

If You Told Me I Was Unclean, I Felt Covered In Rot

If You Told Me I Should Be Ashamed , I Lowered My Head

Tears Of Shame And Remorse From My Eyes Were Shed

I Did Not Understand What I Had Done Wrong

I Only Knew No One Could Love Me, I Did Not Belong

You Were The Adults And I Believed Every Word You Said

You Taught Me Not To Dream And Only Feel Dread

It's Not Right That A Child Wish She Was Never Born

I Always Looked At You With Love, I Was Yours

I Tried So Hard To Please You, No Matter What You Said Or Did

I Wanted You To Open Your Heart And Let Me In ,

I Was Just An Innocent Little Kid

Born To People Who Were Dark And Full Of Hatred

Mom, Dad, Why Did You Make Me Pay For Your Sin ?

Didn't You Love Me Enough To Ask Jesus For The Chance To Begin Again?

Did You Hate Me Right Away, Or Did It Take A While To Seep In ?

Did You Look At Your Baby Girl And Think I'm Going To Pile On Her Shoulders My Hate

Teach Her How Rotten The World Is, Give Her A Miserable Fate

Abuse Her And Abandon Her Right From The Very Start With No Hope To Win

Teach Her Bitterness And Hatred So Her True Self She Keeps Hidden Within

You Were So Wrong To Pass Onto Your Children Your Sins, Your Weight

I Was Your Little Girl And In My Eyes You Were Always Great

But My Adoration Of You Was Met With Words And Blows Meant To Devistate And Berate

For Forty Years My Truth Has Been Your Misery And Your Pain

For Forty Years From Others I Have Accepted Some Form Of Abuse

I Never Thought I Was Good Enough To Even Breath The Same Air As You

Now Finally I Have A Different Personal Truth

I, Your Daughter Have Broken The Continuing Cycle Of Abuse

I Raised My Children Differently Than You

I Realize As A Child What You Both Must Have Went Through

I Was Able To Rise Above It And Deny It My Soul To Consume

I Want You Both To Know I Understand And I Love And Foregive You

My Lord Never Let Go Of My Heart And All That Darkness He Led Me Through

He Forgave Me For The Ways In Which I Had Become Like You

He Has Healed My Scars, Foregave My Sins, And Filled My Heart

So That I Am Able To Forgive You And Make A Fresh Start

I'm Sure satan Will Whisper In Your Ear That I Am Full Of Crap

he Likes To Do Things Like That

But satan I Know Far To Well

I Have Rejected him And Sent him Back To Hell

And That's Where He Will Stay With The Lords Help

There Is So Much Love To Be Had

In The Arms Of Our Heavenly Dad

In His Arms Wrapped In My Faith I Continue On With Life And I Won't Ever Go Back