EMPOWERED
By, Candice Landis
©2012
As I Stand Before You Here Today, I Am Truly Amazed
A Few Short Months Ago I Felt I Was Nobody, It’s How I Was Raised
My Name Is Candice, And I Was Born Into Abuse
All Of My Life I Felt People Were Only Nice If I Could Be Used
My Parents Had A Physically And Verbally Abusive Marriage
I Was Not Cuddled Or Kissed Or Ever Encouraged
Screaming And Hitting Was What I Was Born Into
It’s A Horrible Thing For A Child To See, To Live Thru
You Take Turns Resenting Each Parent As They Violently Strike
You Stand There Unable To Look Away, Frozen In Terror And Fright
You Wake Each Day Praying, Please God Don’t Let Them Fight Tonight
You Even Ask Them, Mom, Dad, Can You Please Be Nice
I Can’t Even Describe The Terror A Child Feels Watching All Of This
Many Times I Feared He Would Kill Her Or She Would Kill Him
I Tried To Be Brave And Come Between Them To Stop Them A Time Or Two
I Soon Learned That’s A Very Dangerous Thing For A Child To Do
My Earliest Childhood Memories Go Back As Early As Age Two
Happy Ones That I Think Now God Knew I Would Need Later To Cling To
Eventually They Divorced And Went Their Separate Ways
Then For Us Kids They Would Tell Us The Other Felt Hate
You Think Your Mother Loves You? Why Didn’t She Show Up Today?
Your Father Doesn’t Care About You, He Doesn’t Have A Brain
On And On They Inflicted On Us Their Words Of Hatred And Pain
Then Each Remarried And The Step Parents Entered The Game
You Would Think With New Spouses Things Would Change
And I Suppose They Did, To Us Kids Shifted All The Blame
One Wasn’t Fond Of Kids And One Had A Daughter Of Her Own
My Life At The Age Of 12 Became An Open War Zone
I No Longer Felt Welcome In My Own Home
I Married And Had A Child At 17, Before I Was Grown
When I Held My Child I Promised Her Abuse She Would Never Know
She Would Always Know My Love, And Know She Had A Home
Both Of My Girls Are Now Grown And Out On Their Own
When They Were Gone I Felt Bereft And All Alone
All Those Feelings I Had As A Child Rose Up Inside Me
Once Again I Was That Little Girl Unloved And Lonely
My Husband And I Had Over The Years Emotionally Grown Apart
Now The Girls Were Gone And I Had A Huge Hole In My Heart
I Had Spent More Than Half My Life Raising Them
Now I Was Left With What They Call An Empty Nest
So I Sat Down One Day And Began To Write
I Wrote About My Past And All Those Feelings I Still Had Inside
I Showed Them To A Friend Of Mine One Day To Get His Insight
He Read Them And Cried, Told Me The Reason I Had Survived Was Christ
I Listened To Him As He Explained Why I Gone Through All Of This
The Fact That I Could Suddenly Write Was A Sign From God, A Gift
He Thought I Was Meant To Go Through Everything I Experienced
So I Could Write And Reach Others Who Have Went Or Are Going Through It
That In Telling My Story I Could Help Others Turn To Christ And Rise Above
That I Can Let Them Know Your Past Does Not Define You And It’s Never Too Late To
Turn To Gods Love
Suddenly For Me Everything Made Sense,
I Felt Finally I Knew My Life’s Purpose
So I Continued To Write And Pray And Study Christ
And I Asked Him To Lead Me And Be My Guide
And This Is Where He Led Me To Begin My Spiritual Life
The Little Girl Unwanted And Oh So Very Shy
Stands In Front Of You Reading Words She’s Written About Her Life
Now I Feel I'm Somebody, I’m A Child Of God And I’m Healing Inside
And That My Friends Is Truly The Amazing Power Of Christ
I Live For Him Now And Dedicate My Life To Help Spread His Light
It’s Never Too Late And You Cant Fall Too Far
God Will Reach Out To You Wherever You Are
Turn To Him And He Will Take You In, He Will Forgive
He Will Bless You And Empower You To Really Live