Living In Darkness
Trapped Inside The Darkness
Flashbacks Of A Past That Leave Me Cold And Heartless
My Soul Like A Night Sky, Black And Starless
Raging Thoughts That I Do Not Mean Flow From My Lips Regardless
Emotionally Steamrolling Anyone In My Path
The Closest To My Heart Getting The Most Poisonous Blast
My Mind Cannot Forget, My Heart Cannot Forgive The Horrors Of My Past
I Can Not Look Ahead For I Am Compelled By The Darkness To Keep Looking Back
Always Feeling Guilty, Stupid and Ashamed
These Feelings Consume Me In An All Encompassing Rage
In My Loved Ones My Trust Can No Longer Be Placed
When I'm Like This I Cannot Control The Hate
Many Of My Relationships End Before They Even Begin
Social Anxiety Leaves Me Floundering In A Nervous Tailspin
Afraid I'll Appear Dumb Or Be Challenged On A Whim
I Try To Stay Invisible Most Times And Just Blend In.
But When The Rage Comes I No Longer Seem To Care
I'll Never Stop Expressing Every Thought, Even If There's No One There
I Just Need To Get It Out So That I Can Breathe In The Fresh Air
I Live In A Dark Place Inside My Mind And Its Just Not Fair
I Don't Feel Loved When I'm Ill, Or Even Liked
I Wish Like A Computer My Memories Could Be Wiped
I Pray All The Time To Be Able To Forgive
I Pray For The Day That In This Horror I'll No Longer Live