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WHAT CAN I SAY
{Author,,Candice Landis } ©2012
I've Been Thinking About What I Might Be Able To Say
To Inspire You To Turn To Christ Today
I Was Born Into Poverty And Abuse
Hit So Hard, My Tender Flesh Bruised
For Years I Was Abused And Tormented
In My Own Home Where I Was Supposed To Be Protected
I Was Told Everyday That I Was Nothing And Never Would Be
Then When I Was Eight The Lord Came To Me
My Mother Had Just Left Us And I Was Immersed In Misery
I Felt We Were Bad Kids And If We Had Behaved She Might Have Been Happy
Then This Little Country Church Opened Up Across The Busy Highway
And I Thought Maybe That Can Be My Escape
So I Put On One Of The Two Yard Sale Dresses I Owned One Sunday Morning
Crept Into My Fathers Bedroom And Told Him Quietly Where I Was Going
He Looked At Me And Shrugged And Said, Sure I Don't Care
So I Ran Acoss That Highway So Nervous And Scared, Eager To See If People Would
Like Me There
I Attended For Over A Year And Each Time I Was Filled With Shame And Fear
That They Would Find Out I Wasn't Good And Wouldn't Welcome Me Here
Eventually I Stopped Going Because I Had No Nice Clothes
But I Never Forgot That Church And How To The Lord They Seemed So Close
I Had Many More Trials Over The Years To Get Through
More Abuse, More Fears, Many More Tears, God Was The Only One I Talked To
I Always Just Figured He Was The Safest To Confide
Cuz He Didn't Talk Back, At Least Not To My Mind
Today I Know Differently, I Know He Listened To Every Word, Shed With Me Every Tear
I Know He Held My Hand And Led Me Through As I Faced Each Fear
And The Reason I Know Is Because I'm Forty Years Old And I'm Still Here
And Up Untill A Year Or So Ago I Was Still That Little Girl, Crying Those Same Tears
Then Jesus Sent One Of His Children To Me Who Tore Down Every Wall Of Self Protection
That I In My Fear Had Erected
He Saw How Dammaged I Had Become And Was Angry I Had Allowed Myself To
Be So Effected
Where I Saw Ugliness And Hate, Jagged Scars Of Abuse, He Saw Perfection
In The Lords Heart As Well As His He Showed Me That Long Sought After Love And
Protection
So At The Ripe Old Age Of Thirty Nine I Embarked On A New Journey
One Of Faith In My Lord That Has Washed Away My Sins So I No Longer Feel Dirty
For The First Time In My Forty Year Life I Can See Beyond All That Pain And Strife
With A Pure Heart I Have Invited Jesus To Lead Me In Life
My Life Is Far From Perfect At This Moment In Time But Jesus Has Opened My Eyes
I Know It Will Take Time And Effort,, I Didn't Get To Wear I'm At Now Overnight
I've Begun Attending Church Again And Now In My Life I Have Hope And Light
And A Determination To Be A Better Person And I See How He Has Blessed My Life
The Point I'm Hoping To Make Is It Doesn't Matter Who You Are Or What Age
It Doesn't Matter What Situations In Life You Face
Turn To Christ, He Can Heal You And Take Away Your Sin And Your Pain
He Will Forgive You And Allow You To Start Again With A Clean Slate
He Will Lead You And In His Arms You Will Have A Resting Place All Of Your Days