Reaching Out
(written by, Candice Landis 8/15/2013)
Surrounded By Angry Storm Clouds
Consumed By My Own Self Doubt
Terrified Of Rejection
If I Dared To Speak Up And Draw Attention
Trapped In My Self Created Little World
Where My Abandoned Soul Lay Tightly Curled
Allowing Only My Husband And Children To Enter
I Made Them Everything, They Were My Center
I Had Learned This Was The Safest Place For Me
Here I Could Ignore The Worlds Cold Cruelty
I Wasn't Living In Reality
I Had Let Others Define What I Thought Myself To Be
I Was Ashamed And Embarrassed, I Felt Unclean
I Had No Desire To Venture Out And Be Seen
Of Friends And Companionship I Was Undeserving
All Of My Life I Was Never Included, Always On The Outside Observing
Eventually My World Got Even Smaller
My Children Grew Up, Forcing Me To Be Stronger
I Watched As They Created Lives Of Their Own
Leaving Me Feeling Once More Abandoned And Alone
My Husband And I Were Completely Lost
What Were We Going To Do Now That The Kids Were Gone ?
For Twenty Years They Had Been Our Only Focus
We Felt Lost And Utterly Hopeless
I Slowly Began Talking To The Lord
Putting Faith In Something More
I Pleaded And Cried And Confessed My Sin
Confided In Him That I Wanted To Really Live
I Knew There Had To Be More Out There For Me
I Was Tired Of Being Closed Off, I Was Drowning
Suddenly I Was Filled With Warmth And Great Clarity
Hope That I Was More Than I Or Anyone Else Had Ever Seen
His Love Whispered, " Child, Come Home To Me"
I Put My Heart Into His Hands And Asked Him To Take The Lead
I Started Attending A Church He Led Me To Faithfully
Much To My Amazement My Husband Followed Along Behind Me
Our Lives Have Changed In So Many Ways , It's Amazing To See
Life Is Far From Perfect But It Was Never Promised To Be
We Have Ups And Downs And Seemingly Impossible Goals To Achieve
But What The Lord Has Given Us Is Faith And The Ability
I've Since Reached Out To Many Who I Thought Disliked Me
A Kind Word Here And There All The While Smiling Gently
They Respond With Warmth And Are Amazed At The Changes I'm Making
Most Had No Clue To The Thoughts Of Self Doubt That For Years I Had Been Thinking
I Realize Now There Is A Reason For Every Event That Has Taken Place In My Life
The Lord Never Abandoned Me, He Was Always There By My Side
He Is The Reason That I Managed To Somehow Survive
He Knew This Day Would Come, When I Would Fully Open My Heart To Jesus Christ